Mola! Falling Slowly

Some times they say it happens in second.
Like a 'click'...
Sometimes it happens.
Mostly you assume it happens.
I guess when it happens, I'll know better.
Still waiting, still counting on ... 
Does that make me so stupid?
Does that mean I'm blind?
Does that make a difference when you believe in this heart and soul?

Mola! To Clear Up Your Mind

Take a deep breath and let the day begin... 
No matter what is the time, if you're early or not on the right time. 
Let go, let it flow, let it bring you into a new world or just back to beginning. 
If you'll have to start again, there will be a bag of precious memories within. 
Let every part of your body and your soul row all the way down. 
Till the end of the way... Till the brand new dawn...

Enfes! It's been 2 months already

It's been 2 months now, since the pink umbrella's hit the road...

I can't resist a fast car nor a roaring invitation to road...
The only thing I miss is a road, the only thing I long for.

But for now it's all good.
Because I'm just in the middle of a giant start for a brand new, long long road.

May the force be with all of us!

Continuum

Don't forget
Don't give up

But

Move on
Carry on
              Not to leave out
              But to make revolution linger on in every possible way...

Break In The Loop!

I realized that haven't written in a while. 
I realized there's been too much to talk about.
I realized it's been a century instead of a little month.
I realized I knew nothing. I know this sounds like it's no surprise but you know what, it surprised me so much deep inside.

So I just shut the fuck up because I didin't have anything more important than the people singing for a while.
I am deeply sorry that I can't sing like them. But I am so lucky that the song they're singing is the song I was singing in my mind for a very long time, all by myself...

KEEP CALM AND CARRY ON RESISTING!

It's A Wish Time Again =)

... once more before I hit the road...

I'm trying to do my best not to give up on our beloved future photo.

How about laying your hands on this... on me for instance?

Make me get rid of these hits FOR GOD'S SAKE!

Lost, Forever...

It's like... lingering in space... forever...

I guess I wasn't this lost before. Not this deep. 

Sometimes you feel so far away, you feel so... on your own, so silent. Those times you feel a weird pain, weird enough not to look like a pain. You feel it just in the middle of your stomach, lingering just in the centre... of you.

So is that all? Is it over already? Even without a start? Lingering forever? Nobody's there to grab you and take away from the dark. Maybe that's why you were always afraid of dark. 

Maybe you've always known it would cover your whole existince till the end of your life.

...How could I know?

Mola! New Software In The House

And it is what saved me for the last couple of months. It always did, adn it always will, and maybe I'll survive longer than I thought and even in a better way maybe...

Truth Hurts...

If I should personalize... I just read books... at random... and my choices framed by a very loose philosophy. I guess we can keep every act of mine within this frame. 

It's fun acutally.

27 - Closer to the end anthem

It sounds so 27, like an early grief of 30...

It's not that I'm a feminist, but today it feels SO and MUCH MORE true than any other day...


Would it be, really, nothing without me? Then why I don't feel that way, why I can't believe?...

Mola! Almost Club 27

Did you know that there is another club for failing twenty-seveners?

... and it's still cool if your rock even just by a note.
And give the rest one more club to hang out. That's mine... called 'Almost...Only' 
Full of many almosts and if onlys. I thought I put up the shatters for that one. But I guess they keep looking back at me with big open eyes expecting me to finally understand that there's no getting over with for someone obsession is a way to make the day.
Anyway...
There's alwayd good music to linger on behind walls... and that just relieves me.

Mola! Sunday Hope

That little child in you, starving for some better days to arrive.
Don't mess with him. He can get you anytime.
And don't let him freak out that life can get him, too.
Hope, in the end, keeps you surviving.                   Right?

Let It Be, Let It Get Me

Pour something over me and make me drown
Let it be heavy, let it hurt but let it be quick as well
Let my story hang on beneath the trees, like some crust of the rivers
Not to get found by someone but to be sung eternally 
Not for some people, just for some soul
To let them know they could do more
To let them know they could do better
Because the worst part passed away
                                                          With me

Now My Dawn Arrives

I knew it would take time to heal.

I knew it would take time for that change.

I knew I would wait longer than I expected.

I knew it would feel weirder than I thought.

But still...

I can feel it's here.
And then there are still some gaps through the day. They make me stumble but the gaps are more little than I thought. Most of all, it was all about deeper thoughts till now. Now it's in the air. I can breathe it. They seize my day.

Hopefully, here is the dawn of my spring. So I'm just in the middle of a big pause... to begin.

Mola! Just like...

Sometimes it's like waking up and fall asleep again just in a second.

And sometimes it's just like you'll find no way from that deep sleep.



                    and sometimes it's just killing me...

Mola! Anthem of the People Who Got Stuck...

NOW REPEAT WITH ME!

EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT

AND

I AM THE HAPPIEST PERSON ON THE WORLD!

AND

I MEAN IT

AND 

I FEEL IT

AND

I WON'T DENY IT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES!

Give Me A Break!

Anything could happen right now. I could do anything to set myself free. Still only the fear of regret keeps me  away from blowing this place up. But in a second... just in a second... I can forget everything... I can leave everything behind me... And I can set my words free... in your face... wouldn't it be... just AWESOME! But then again, I remember someone saying that... regret would be the worst torture...

Mola! John On My Mind...

Some people just sings my mind out loud
and 
I LOVE'EM!!!!

This is how I feel...

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